My Prayer Tonight

Lord, you have spoken through your Word, saying that you would give people the desires of their hearts if they sought to honor you. Specifically, Psalm 37:4 says, "Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart."



If you know anything about me, you know that the desire of my heart is to be blessed with a loving wife. If she is easy on the eyes, I will feel doubly blessed --- but I understand that physical beauty is meaningless unless it's complemented by inner beauty.


Therefore, please take the seeds I have sown in the form of an expenditure on 5,000 postcards aimed at single women in the Bellingham area (many of whom will be from my zip code of 98225) and let those seeds yield fruit, even in excess of what might normally be expected from "junk mail".


The cards have made it clear that my faith in you (not "faith in faith") is important to me.


I won't lie to you --- I have been very angry at you recently, both because of the behavior of other Christians, and because of the enormous difficulties caused by having a body that no longer works as it once worked.


But the Bible is full of examples of people who were less than perfect, and who allowed their moments of despair to take their eyes off of you. If being perfect were a prerequisite for receiving a blessing, the only one qualified to receive a blessing would be your Son.


I've acknowledged here that inner beauty is more important than physical beauty. How do I define inner beauty?


A woman with inner beauty loves people --- ALL people, from racial minorities, to unborn children, to people with disabilities such as mine.


A woman with inner beauty values human life, and would die herself before she contributed to the evil of abortion.


A woman with inner beauty has the heart of a servant. Not the heart of a slave, for which I have no desire, but the heart of someone who considers the needs of others to be as important as her own needs.


Such a person will be a true "helpmeet" for me: Doing the kinds of things that my Personal Care Assistant now does for me, with the added spice of physical affection in the form of kissing, caresses, and actual sexual intercourse.


Help me to be worthy of such a woman. Empower me to resist temptations to stray from my commitment to this woman. Empower me to show her kindness that reflects the kindness that your Son showed to people during His time here on earth. Empower me to forgive her if she sometimes treats me as she ought not to treat me. Empower me to ask for her forgiveness, if the shoe is on the other foot.


Help me to locate the finances that will be needed for our wedding, and for our every day material needs, in terms of creating a happy home.


Help me, if this woman has children of her own from a prior relationship, to love those children and treat them as you would have me to treat them.


Help us to find friends who understand the meaning of friendship, so that neither of us will feel as if we are trying to succeed on our own.


To those who have read this prayer of mine, please join with me in the prayer. The Bible says, "For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them."